Variations upon Love

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I.

For God's sake, let me love you, and give overThese tedious protestations of a lover;We're of one mind to love, and there's no let;Remember that, and all the rest forget;And let's be happy, mistress, while we may,Ere yet to-morrow shall be called to-day.To-morrow may be heedless, idle-hearted:One night's enough for love to have met and parted.Then be it now, and I'll not say that IIn many several deaths for you would die;And I'll not ask you to declare that youWill longer love than women mostly do.Leave words to them whom words, not doings, move,And let our silence answer for our love.

II.

O woman! I am jealous of the eyesThat look upon you; all my looks are spiesThat do but lurk and follow you about,Restless to find some guilty secret out.I am unhappy if I see you not,Unhappy if I see you; tell me whatThat smile betokens? what close thing is hidBeneath the half-way lifting of a lid?Who is it, tell me, I so dread to meet,Just as we turn the corner of the street?Daily I search your baffling eyes to seeWho knows what new admitted company?And, sick with dread to find the thing I seek,I tremble at the name you do not speak.

III.

I know your lips are bought like any fruit;I know your love, and of your love the root;I know your kisses toll for love that diesIn kissing, to be buried in your eyes;I know I am degraded for your sake,And that my shame will not so much as makeYour glory, or be reckoned in the debtOf memories you are mindful to forget.All this I know, and, knowing it, I comeDelighted to my daily martyrdom;And, rich in love beyond the common store,Become for you a beggar, to imploreThe broken crumbs that from your table fall,Freely, in your indifference, on all.

IV.

I loved her; and you say she loved me not.Well, if I loved her? And if she forgot,Well, I have not forgotten even yet:Time, and spent tears, may teach me to forget.And so she loves another, and did thenWhen she was heaven and earth to me, and when,Truly, she made me happy. It may be:I only know how good she was to me.Friend, to have loved, to have been made happy thus,What better fate has life in store for us,The dream of life from which we have to wake,Happier, why not? why not for a dream's sake?To have been loved is well, and well enoughFor any man: but 'tis enough to love.

© Arthur Symons