from The Triumph of Love

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Sun-blazed, over Romsley, a livid rain-scarp.

XIII

Whose lives are hidden in God? Whose? 
Who can now tell what was taken, or where, 
or how, or whether it was received:
how ditched, divested, clamped, sifted, over-
laid, raked over, grassed over, spread around, 
rotted down with leafmould, accepted 
as civic concrete, reinforceable
base cinderblocks:
tipped into Danube, Rhine, Vistula, dredged up 
with the Baltic and the Pontic sludge:
committed in absentia to solemn elevation, 
Trauermusik, musique funèbre, funeral
music, for male and female
voices ringingly a cappella,
made for double string choirs, congregated brass, 
choice performers on baroque trumpets hefting, 
like glassblowers, inventions
of supreme order?

XIV

As to bad faith, Malebranche might argue 
it rests with inattention. Stupidity
is not admissible. However, the status 
of apprehension remains at issue.
Some qualities are best
left unrecognized. Needless to say,
unrecognized is not
unacknowledged. Unnamed is not nameless.

XVII

If the gospel is heard, all else follows: 
the scattering, the diaspora,
the shtetlach, ash pits, pits of indigo dye. 
Penitence can be spoken of, it is said,
but is itself beyond words;
even broken speech presumes. Those Christian Jews 
of the first Church, huddled sabbath-survivors, 
keepers of the word; silent, inside twenty years, 
doubly outcast: even so I would remember— 
the scattering, the diaspora.
We do not know the saints.
His mercy is greater even than his wisdom.
If the gospel is heard, all else follows.
We shall rise again, clutching our wounds.

XXXV

Even now, I tell myself, there is a language 
to which I might speak and which
would rightly hear me;
responding with eloquence; in its turn, 
negotiating sense without insult
given or injury taken.
Familiar to those who already know it 
elsewhere as justice,
it is met also in the form of silence.

XXIX

Rancorous, narcissistic old sod—what
makes him go on? We thought, hoped rather,
he might be dead. Too bad. So how
much more does he have of injury time?

XL

For wordly, read worldly; for in equity, inequity; 
for religious read religiose; for distinction 
detestation. Take accessible to mean
acceptable, accommodating, openly servile. 
Is that right, Missis, or is that right? I don’t 
care what I say, do I?

XLI

For iconic priesthood, read worldly pique and ambition. 
Change insightfully caring to pruriently intrusive. 
Delete chastened and humbled. Insert humiliated. 
Interpret slain in the spirit as browbeaten to exhaustion. 
For hardness of heart read costly dislike of cant.

XLII

Excuse me—excuse me—I did not 
say the pain is lifting. I said the pain is in 
the lifting. No—please—forget it.

XLIII

This is quite dreadful—he’s become obsessed.
There you go, there you go—narrow it down to obsession!

LI

Whatever may be meant by moral landscape, 
it is for me increasingly a terrain
seen in cross-section: igneous, sedimentary, 
conglomerate, metamorphic rock-
strata, in which particular grace, 
individual love, decency, endurance, 
are traceable across the faults.

LII

Admittedly at times this moral landscape 
to my exasperated ear emits
archaic burrings like a small, high-fenced 
electricity sub-station of uncertain age 
in a field corner where the flies
gather and old horses shake their sides.

LXVI

Christ has risen yet again to their 
ritual supplication. It seems weird 
that the comedy never self-destructs. 
Actually it is strengthened—if 
attenuation is strength. (Donne 
said as much of gold. Come back,
Donne, I forgive you; and lovely Herbert.) 
But what strange guild is this 
that practises daily
synchronized genuflection and takes pride 
in hazing my Jewish wife? If Christ 
be not risen, Christians are petty 
temple-schismatics, justly
cast out of the law. Worse things 
have befallen Israel. But since he is 
risen, he is risen even for these 
high-handed underlings of self-
worship: who, as by obedience, 
proclaim him risen indeed.

LXVII

Instruct me further in your travail, 
blind interpreter. Suppose I cannot 
unearth what it was they buried: research 
is not anamnesis. Nor is this a primer 
of innocence exactly. Did the centurion 
see nothing irregular before the abnormal 
light seared his eyeballs? Why do I 
take as my gift a wounded and wounding 
introspection? The rule is clear enough: last 
alleluias forte, followed by indifferent 
coffee and fellowship.

LXIX

What choice do you have? These are false questions. 
Fear is your absolute, yet in each feature 
infinitely variable, Manichean beyond dispute, 
for you alone, the skeletal maple, a loose wire 
tapping the wind.

LXX

Active virtue: that which shall contain 
its own passion in the public weal— 
do you follow?—or can you at least 
take the drift of the thing? The struggle 
for a noble vernacular: this
did not end with Petrarch. But where is it? 
Where has it got us? Does it stop, in our case, 
with Dryden, or, perhaps,
Milton’s political sonnets?—the cherished stock 
hacked into ransom and ruin; the voices 
of distinction, far back, indistinct. 
Still, I’m convinced that shaping,
voicing, are types of civic action. Or, slightly 
to refashion this, that Wordsworth’s two 
Prefaces stand with his great tract 
on the Convention of Cintra, witnessing 
to the praesidium in the sacred name
of things betrayed. Intrinsic value
I am somewhat less sure of. It seems 
implicate with active virtue but I cannot 
say how, precisely. Partaking of both
fact and recognition, it must be, therefore, 
in effect, at once agent and predicate: 
imponderables brought home 
to the brute mass and detail of the world; 
there, by some, to be pondered.

XCVI

Ignorant, assured, there comes to us a voice— 
Unchallengeable—of the foundations,
distinct authority devoted
to indistinction. With what proximity
to justice stands the record of mischance,
heroic hit-or-miss, the air
so full of flak and tracer, legend says,
you pray to live unnoticed. Mr Ives
took Emersonian self-reliance the whole 
way on that. Melville, half-immolated, 
rebuilt the pyre. Hoist, some time later, 
stumbled on dharma. What can I say?—
At worst and best a blind ennoblement, 
flood-water, hunched, shouldering at the weir, 
the hatred that is in the nature of love.

CXVIII

By default, as it so happens, here we have 
good and bad angels caught burning 
themselves characteristic antiphons; 
and here the true and the false 
shepherds discovered
already deep into their hollow debate. 
Is that all? No, add spinners of fine 
calumny, confectioners of sugared
malice; add those who find sincerity 
in heartless weeping. Add the pained, 
painful clowns, brinksmen of perdition. 
Sidney: best realizer and arguer
of music, that ‘divine
striker upon the senses’, steady my 
music to your Augustinian grace-notes, 
with your high craft of fret. I am glad 
to have learned how it goes
with you and with Italianate-
Hebraic Milton: your voices pitched exactly— 
somewhere—between Laus Deo and defiance.

CXIX

And yes—bugger you, MacSikker et al.,—I do 
mourn and resent your desolation of learning: 
Scientia that enabled, if it did not secure, 
forms of understanding, far from despicable, 
and furthest now, as they are most despised. 
By understanding I understand diligence 
and attention, appropriately understood
as actuated self-knowledge, a daily acknowledgement 
of what is owed the dead.

CXX

As with the Gospels, which it is allowed to resemble, 
in Measure for Measure moral uplift
is not the issue. Scrupulosity, diffidence,
shrill spirituality, conviction, free expression, 
come off as poorly as deceit or lust.
The ethical motiv is—so we may hazard— 
opportunism, redemptive and redeemed; 
case-hardened on case-law, casuistry’s
own redemption; the general temper
a caustic equity.

CXXI

So what is faith if it is not
inescapable endurance? Unrevisited, the ferns
are breast-high, head-high, the days 
lustrous, with their hinterlands of thunder. 
Light is this instant, far-seeing 
into itself, its own
signature on things that recognize 
salvation. I
am an old man, a child, the horizon 
is Traherne’s country.

CXLVII

To go so far with the elaborately-
vested Angel of Naked Truth: 
and where are we, finally? Don’t 
say that—we are nowhere 
finally. And nowhere are you— 
nowhere are you—any more—more 
cryptic than a schoolyard truce. Cry 
Kings, Cross, or Crosses, cry Pax, 
cry Pax, but to be healed. But to be 
healed, and die!

CXLVIII

Obnoxious means, far back within itself, 
easily wounded. But vulnerable, proud 
anger is, I find, a related self
of covetousness. I came late
to seeing that. Actually, I had to be
shown it. What I saw was rough, and still 
pains me. Perhaps it should pain me more. 
Pride is our crux: be angry, but not proud 
where that means vainglorious. Take Leopardi’s 
words or—to be accurate—BV’s English 
cast of them: when he found Tasso’s poor 
scratch of a memorial barely showing
among the cold slabs of defunct pomp. It 
seemed a sad and angry consolation.
So—Croker, MacSikker, O’Shem—I ask you: 
what are poems for? They are to console us
with their own gift, which is like perfect pitch. 
Let us commit that to our dust. What
ought a poem to be? Answer, a sad 
and angry consolation. What is 
the poem? What figures? Say, 
a sad and angry consolation. That’s 
beautiful. Once more? A sad and angry 
consolation.

CXLIX

Obstinate old man—senex
sapiens, it is not. Is he still
writing? What is he writing now? He 
has just written: I find it hard
to forgive myself. We are immortal. Where 
was I?—

CL

Sun-blazed, over Romsley, the livid rain-scarp.

© Geoffrey Hill