A Pre-Existence

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An intimation of some previous life,
  Or dark dream, in the present dim-divined,
  Of some uncertain sleep--or lived or dreamed
  In some dead life--between a dusk and dawn;

  From heathen battles to Toledo's gates,
  Far off defined, his corselet and camail,
  Damascened armet, shattered; in an eve's
  Anger of brass a galloping glitter, one
  Rode arrow-wounded. And the city caught
  A cry before him and a wail behind,
  Of walls beleaguered; battles; conquered kings;
  Triumphant Taric; broken Spain and slaves.

  And I, a Moslem slave, a miser Jew's,
  Housed near the Tagus--squalid and alone
  Save for his slave, held dear--to beat and starve--
  Leaner than my lank shadow when the moon,
  A burning beacon, westerns; and my bones
  A visible hunger; famished with the fear,
  Soul-garb of slaves, I bore him--I, who held
  Him soul and self, more hated than his God,
  Stood silent; fools had laughed; I saw my way.

  War-time crops weapons; and the blade I bought
  Was subtly pointed. For, I knew his ways:
  The nightly nuptials of his jars of gems
  And bags of doublas--oh, I knew his ways.
  A shadow, woven in the hangings, hid
  Till time said _now_; gaunt from the hangings stole
  Behind him; humped and stooping so, his heart
  Clove through the faded tunic, murrey-dyed;
  Grinned exultation while the grim, slow blood
  Drenched black and darkened round the oblong wound,
  And his old face thinned grayer than morn's moon.

  Rubies from Badakhshân in rose lights dripped
  Slim tears of poppy-purple crystal; dull,
  Red, ember-pregnant, carbuncles wherein
  Fevered a captive crimson; bugles wan
  Of cat-eyed hyacinths; moon-emeralds
  With starry greenness stabbed; in limpid stains
  Of liquid lilac, Persian amethysts;
  Fire-opals savage and mesmeric with
  Voluptuous flame, long, sweet, and sensuous as
  Soft eyes of Orient women; sapphires beamed
  With talismanic violet, from tombs,
  Deev-guarded, of primordial Solimans;
  Length-agonized with fire, diamonds of
  Golconda--This, a sandaled dervise bare
  Seven days, beneath a red Arabian sun,
  Seven nights, beneath a round Arabian moon,
  Under his tongue; an Emeer's ransom, held
  Of some wild tribe.... Bleached in the perishing waste
  A Bedouin Arab found sand-strangled bones,
  A skeleton, vulture-torn, fierce in whose skull
  One blazing eye--the diamond. At Aleppo
  Bartered--a bauble for his desert love.--
  Jacinth and Indian pearl, gem jolting gem,
  Flashed, rutilating in the irised light,
  A rain of splintered fire; and his head,
  Long-haired, white-sunk among them.

  Yet I took
  All--though his eyes burned in them; though, meseemed,
  Each several jewel glared a separate curse....

  Well! dead men work us mischief from the grave.
  Richer than all Castile and yet not dare
  Drink but from cups of Roman murra, spar
  Bowl-sprayed with fibrile gold! spar sensitive
  Of poison! I, no slave, yet all a slave
  To fear a dead fool's malice!--Still, how else!
  Feasting within the music of my halls,
  While perfumed beauty danced in sinuous robes,
  Diaphanous, more silken than those famed
  Of loomed Amorgos or of classic Kos,
  Draining the unflawed murrhine, Xeres-brimmed,
  Had I reeled poisoned, dying wolfsbane-slain!

© Madison Julius Cawein