When I ran, it rained. Late in the afternoon— 
midsummer, upstate New York, mornings I wrote, 
read Polish history, and there was a woman 
whom I thought about; outside the moody, humid 
American sublime—late in the afternoon, 
toward sundown, just as the sky was darkening, 
the light came up and redwings settled in the cattails. 
They were death's idea of twilight, the whole notes 
of a requiem the massed clouds croaked 
above the somber fields. Lady of eyelashes, 
do you hear me? Whiteness, otter's body, 
coolness of the morning, rubbed amber 
and the skin's salt, do you hear me? This is Poland speaking, 
“era of the dawn of freedom,” nineteen twenty-two. 
When I ran, it rained. The blackbirds settled 
their clannish squabbles in the reeds, and light came up. 
First darkening, then light. And then pure fire. 
Where does it come from? out of the impure 
shining that rises from the soaked odor of the grass, 
the levitating, Congregational, meadow-light-at-twilight 
light that darkens the heavy-headed blossoms 
of wild carrot, out of that, out of nothing 
it boils up, pools on the horizon, fissures up, 
igniting the undersides of clouds: pink flame, 
red flame, vermilion, purple, deeper purple, dark. 
You could wring the sourness of the sumac from the air, 
the fescue sweetness from the grass, the slightly 
maniacal cicadas tuning up to tear the fabric 
of the silence into tatters, so that night, 
if it wants to, comes as a beggar to the door 
at which, if you do not offer milk and barley 
to the maimed figure of the god, your well will foul, 
your crops will wither in the fields. In the eastern marches 
children know the story that the aspen quivers 
because it failed to hide the Virgin and the Child 
when Herod's hunters were abroad. Think: night is the god 
dressed as the beggar drinking the sweet milk. 
Gray beard, thin shanks, the look in the eyes 
idiot, unbearable, the wizened mouth agape, 
like an infant's that has cried and sucked and cried 
and paused to catch its breath. The pink nubbin 
of the nipple glistens. I'll suckle at that breast, 
the one in the song of the muttering illumination 
of the fields before the sun goes down, before 
the black train crosses the frontier from Prussia 
into Poland in the age of the dawn of freedom. 
Fifty freight cars from America, full of medicine 
and the latest miracle, canned food. 
The war is over. There are unburied bones 
in the fields at sun-up, skylarks singing, 
starved children begging chocolate on the tracks.
Between the Wars
written byRobert Hass
© Robert Hass


 



